Reese's!?!?!

Yesterday was alright. I did get to watch the Muppet's Christmas Carol. Then there was a big afk time.. where I didn't want to do anything... so I waited. Then he came back and he got busy. I studied some FYC... Then I couldn't study anymore so I went to bed. I kept on thinking "its not a real relationship not a real relationship." I listened to Send Me An Angel before going to bed so I can get to sleep in a better mood but it didn't work. My roommate was texting even though the light was out. I waited for her to stop so I can start concentrating on getting to sleep... but it didn't work out. Then I really broke down and cried hitting my ears and crying muchly into my pillow so no one can hear. First time this year. I felt like braking my stuff and hitting myself. But.... I REALLY needed to get that texting noise out of my ears so I wouldn't go crazy I guess. So I turned on my computer and listened to Melodies of Life. I typed my feelings to Albert who was away from the keyboard at the time. I thought that I was a real idiot for typing that stuff but I couldn't help it, I needed to tell someone. But then like, right by the end of what I was going to say he came back and helped me. After that, instead of punching myself in the face, I went to bed. I don't know how it changed me so much. I felt so bad that I worried him. Because of my crying and hitting at the beginning I had a big headache when I went to sleep. It felt like someone was pushing down inside my brain. But for some reason I didn't feel like taking any advil. I went right to sleep with the computer on. It will not happen again. I dreamed about Sonic the Hedgehog. Then I woke up and checked the computer and went back to sleep. My head felt like a bunch of cottonballs were in there. I dreamed about some weird stuff. First my mom was stranded at a gasstation so I had to drive there. But for some reason I was too short to really look and I had to close my eyes at the intersections I was driving past. It was pretty scary. But then I got this notebook at a restaurant when eatting pizza with my mom and I helped my mom get home. I went to school, it was Hogwarts. >.> Harry, Ron, Hermione, and I used the new notebook and were able to tame dragons when riding broomsticks. The other students were really jealous that we were able to do that. So when I was packing my bags this one guy pointed his wand at me and said "Give me the notebook or she dies." so we gave the guy the notebook and for some reason he wasn't expelled. We were sad that we couldn't get the book back but... for some reason I could fly then, just like the dream I had before.
I woke up after that. Went and ate lunch. Saw that Laura was eatting and sat with her. One of the plants outside looked like a hedgehog. I studied french and fyc and stuff. Tomorrow I'll get up early. I need to get some earplugs. and stop thinking about how aweful my brain is. But after crying that much I feel better? I laughed alot when I talked to Albert on the phone sooo.. its getting better all the time? Beatles! I listened to Beatles today. Ate ramen for dinner. I found some. =) Tomorrow I'll be doing my FYC paper, 2 religious classics papers, and possibly.. some French. Once I'm done with everything, I'll ask that person to watch a movie with me.
From what Rikimaru said to me today, I think it will be Quote of the Day:
rikimaru75 (2:58:45 PM): sometimes, we've just gotta deal with the cards that are handed to us