Shinobu

Quote of the day that was kinda the theme of the day is by Shinobu. The girl in Love Hina that people say is exactly like me.
Why can't I ever be happy?"
The begining of the day was alright, I called into work and said I would work tomorrow instead of today. I studied a long time for my history test that would come 5 hours later. I watched Pokemon and it was intense but they made a cliffhanger. I took my history test and I think I got an A on it. I sneezed afterward and got a headache from that. I went to dinner and took a 2 hour nap. I felt irritated afterward. I talked to Albert and he said he was going to a cool halloween party which caused me to get upset and jealous cause high school was pretty bad for me and he's having such a good time. I almost started crying and everything. I feel like being jealous about someone I love is really horrible and I should punish myself for it or its really sinful. I wish it wasn't my first reaction to when people talk about their happy times. I then later think of it being not as bad. Maybe my medicine totally wears off if I take naps. I asked Laura for a talk and we talked and it was really nice. She had times in high school and even now about unfairness and how it should make me work harder rather than pull myself down and make me feel bad. I surely wouldn't want to switch happy times with them, I truely want other people to be happy... I don't know why I have jealousy in me. Also I've heard of some awesome parties to go to but I can't go to yet. It seems like the only parties I would be interested in with other people. Earlham celebrates the japanese spring festival! =O! zomg. I also feel like I should be a budding in freshman, go out there and join people even though it looks like I'm annoying. I remember last year some people taught me a card game in oakwood. Even though I need to stay in my room and study to get straight A's, I want to go out and spend the last time here to be a good one. I really appreciate Laura, she is the first friend I've had who tells me everything that goes on. =)
That was an interesting rant, went from bad to good. I need to watch Daily Show and Colbert Report and study precal for 3-6 hours tonight still. I better get going. I saw Sempai today too! I'm reminding myself of Shinobu again. >.<